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Hey all.
Started over.
hiddensymphonies.blogspot.com
Love you guys.

Damn.

It's been a while.

Basically, I'm bored.

Damn, a lot of things have changed since my last post.

Discovered an AMAZING band: Hollywood Undead.

Going to a Muse concert in THIRTEEN DAYS.  (Bitch.)  With the lovely Emmy, of course.  ;o

Addicted to Monsters.

Injuries right and left.

Failing a couple classes.

On my fourth boyfriend.

Realizing that I'm very picky when it comes to female friends.

Trying to help a friend who has been crying for three days.

Oh yeah, dating senior guys these days...

Eating Frosted Flakes.

Being a moderator on an amazing, nerdy flash game site.  (Don't judge me, bitches).

I think that's about it...too lazy to type more.

Love anyone who happens to find this at some point.

Miss the crusties.

Love,

Faye

It's Been A While...

Have you ever felt someone else's pain so strongly that you felt like crying yourself?

No, I'm not talking about a broken arm.  More like...a broken heart.

See, I don't know why, but I've always felt other people's feelings more acutely than my own, as if mine are...muffled.  So, with my close friends especially, I share their happiness, excitement...and sorrow.

My friend just got dumped by his girlfriend.  I'm good friends with both.

She had told me that morning what she was going to do; drew me aside and whispered it.  I could see the regret in her eyes, though I knew it wasn't for the end...but for hurting him.  I had known this would happen sooner rather than later, though, seeing him so happy...I wished it would go on forever.

I saw him that morning.  He was...just fine.  Just as he always was, since her.  I smiled at him, laughed with him, like I always do.  Could he see the sadness I was trying to hide?  Could he tell that I knew what he'd be in just a few hours?  An empty shell.

I saw him after lunch.  He was trying to act normal, but I know him too well.  I've seen that mask he shows to the world before, and I couldn't be fooled.

Without saying a word, I gave him a quick hug.  He didn't move, but I'm pretty sure it was what he needed.

The last I saw of him today, he was putting away weights, moving robotically.  It had taken him a while to figure out that I knew, but he knows now.

I texted him after school, asking if he was doing okay.

He said he broke down after football.

God...he's always been so strong...that alone nearly had me crying.  I could feel my throat close up and my mind go numb.

I was in rehearsal, but when I finally got to check my phone next, he asked me not to tell her how torn up he was inside.  He was going through all of this, and all he wanted was her happiness.

"I love her, and if I was to cause her such pain, I don't know how I could forgive myself."

IIIICEEEEYYYY.

ICEY.

HEY!  WHAT'S UP?

You haven't been on in forever.

And you know what?

We have a new Beka+Lisa creation going.

And, of course, we want you in it.

Wow. It's Been a While.

Today is our six month.
Me and Eliot, that is.
And you know where he is?
Oh a plane to France.
God.
He left this morning.
I miss him already.
Do you think that's sad?
I do.

In other news.
I went to a wedding.
I had to wear a dress.
My riding instructor doesn't believe I did.
Haha.
Eliot wants to see me in it.
Oh fuck.

I went riding today.
It was fun.
I rode Bella.
I was tired.
I nearly fell off.
Four times.
Wish he was there.
He would have laughed.

I got my texting back.
Have been using it constantly.
God.
I love texting.
I love texting him.

I'm not going to see Eliot for a month and 12 days.
At least.
He's going to Europe.
I'm going to Tahoe.
I'm going to Singapre.
He's going to camp.
Then it's July 25th.
And he comes back.
And I see him.
And I run into his arms.
And he'll never let go.
I wish.

I think I'd do anything for that boy.
I've become rather fond of him.
Okay, so maybe a bit more than fond.
I love him.
As much as a fifteen year old can.
You know.

Fencing is fun.
I've become great friends with Flower.
Flower's real name is Hana.
It means flower in Japanese.
I'm also friends with Erik.
He's nice.
I had to give him kissing advice today.
He has his first girlfriend to deal with.
He misses her too.
We were moaning together.
But he has it lucky.
He gets to see her soon.
Stupid boyfriend.

Why does every thought lead to Eliot?
Oh yeah.
Because I can't get my mind off of him.
Damn.
This is going to be a long month and 12 days.

Well.
What's been up with you guys?
I won't even mention Eliot in the next post.
I promise.
I think.

Maggie.

Hey guys.
I'm in a sad mood. I don't really know why.

Well, I spent the week at Sterling. Helping small children. -.- I hate children.

OH, BUT MY NEPHEW (ish-thing) WAS BORN! His name is Marley Ray, and I love him already. (Haven't met him yet, though...)

Well, anyways, the other assistant for the week was named Maggie. She and I quickly became good friends, and I ended up getting a ride home with her most days.
She's eighteen, but one thing that I love about Sterling is that age doesn't really matter, and we got along just great.
I got to teach a few mounted lessons! I'm too tired to describe them now, but it was really fun.
Oh, and I met Kian. He's twelve, and rides under Melissa's instruction, and fences epee in the class after mine. He thinks that D is better than Bella, and we have been arguing about it since fencing on Tuesday. Yesterday, Melissa let me ride D, so we could compare. (I think half the stable knows about our debate by now...) He's AMAZING. I love his canter. I just had to walk into his stall and I fell in love. It's hard to say who I like better, but I'm sticking with Bella just for the sake of argument. (-desperatelyneedslife-)
On Thursday, after our fencing class, Hannah was telling me something perverted her neighbor had said, and Kian walked up. We stopped and looked at him, and I said, "This isn't for the ears of a child."
"Child!" he demanded indignantly, and stomped his foot. "I'm a preteen!"
We started CRACKING UP. Simon, who was teaching, looked over and said, "Careful. You might want to date him in three years." Of course, this set us off again.
Went free fencing yesterday. Asked Hannah to join me. El was there as well. Hannah and I fenced a few bouts, then we all just sat down and talked.
I was hungry, and El fed me three of those Nature Valley bars, for which I proclaimed my "undying love" for him. xDDDD We all started laughing.

Umm...that's about all I have to say for now. Later.

Love,
Faye

It's GOTTA be Ninja Day

(Okay, so it was yesterday, but still...)
Met Christine at Farmer's Market.
She told me about some 40-year-old asian dude standing outside of the bike racks, doing ninja moves, as she left school.
We saw some teenage dude doing ninja moves, and trying to teach his girlfriend. (Haha, she fails).
Saw a chick cosplaying a character who has some pretty cool ninja moves.
Today, I heard that Jake wanted to carve "ninja" into his clay piece.
It's GOTTA be ninja day. There's no other explanation.