HOLY SHIT.

HELP ME.
HE SAID HE LOVED ME.
Well, more or less.
It went like this...

It was after school.
Eliot walked me to my locker, and we stood near-ish it for a few minutes, talking. Something had been on my mind for a while, but it had never been the right time to say it. I was determined to ask, however, and was about to do so, when he said, "I have to go."
Shit.
I gave him a hug, and said, "Do you have to go this second?"
He must have guessed something was up, because he said, "I can stay for a minute, I guess. What is it?"
I stuttered around for a few moments, trying to collect my thoughts and find out where to begin. Normally, I wouldn't have asked something like this, but I needed to know. I can't explain it, though I was fairly certain I knew the answer would be yes.
"You...you said, a while ago, that you thought that you've been in love." Long story, don't want to explain at the moment. "...Was it Sophia?" His ex, if you don't remember.
"No," he said, confusing me further. I was pretty sure Sophia had been the only other girl he'd ever dated...unless...NO. It could NOT be me. I mean, that's impossible! It was just...out of the question. Completely.
"Oh. ...Was there someone before her, then?" Please don't let my voice have sounded to hopeful.
"No."
HOLY SHIT. I had NO CLUE what to do. I decided to play dumb, and hope for the best.
"...Now I'm confused."
"I have been too." He said something else, but (shit!) I forgot what it was, but it was something that kind of confirmed it.
My mouth dropped open in that oh-so attractive way I have, and I kinda just went, "Oh." Ummm..."So it's--" I couldn't finish that.
He nodded. My mind was just one big 'OH SHIT.'

We kinda just stood like that for a few minutes, his arms still around my waist, then we both started to say something at the same time. Bottom line: he had to go.
I kissed him on the cheek, still unable to meet his eyes. He ran off, and I joined Lily and Katy.

I told Lily the basics, and she told me her theory: stay confused long enough, and you'll eventually be unconfused.

Ellie rode past as Lily and I were sitting on a big rock next to the field by my old elementary school. I called out to her, and she stopped, and we all hung out a bit.

I walked home with Ellie, and gave her the basics. Well...basic.

She said that, by the way I talked to/about him, it sounded like I love him.

The thing is, I don't know. I mean, it's not like I've ever been in love before. I don't know what it feels like!

Help me!

Love,
Faye